happy?

Last night Mr. Joseph asked me if I'm happy. For the first time since we got married, I had a hard time answering that. Am I happy? With what exactly? With him? Absolutely. He's amazing- I honestly never dreamed I'd have a husband this caring, loving, and understanding. But with life in general? I'm not sure. I know life is hard for everyone right now, but sometimes I let myself indulge in a little pity party because we just can't seem to catch a break. We've been trying to get a steady job for over a year. Being poor I can handle- being completely and utterly broke... not so much. We're only a few weeks (at the very most) away from this baby getting here and we don't have the time or the money to get his room in order. On the other hand, I have an incredible husband, a great family, and while I'd love to have a few friends who live close to me the ones I've got are pretty incredible. I'm trying so hard to do my best here, but I've about reached my limit of stress before I just break down. Whine much? Yes. But I have to get it out so I can try to move on and get something done today.

First up- Today I get to work on Cameron's Christmas present! YAY! My sweet husband got my sewing machine all cleaned up and running. I'm psyched. I just hope I'm better at sewing than I think I might be... yikes. Also looking for tutorials for crafts for my Momma. Already found a few that I think she'll love. Bomb.

"It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day-to-day basis."

-Margaret Bonnano