Sometimes I feel like I'm the coolest person alive. Seriously. I do. Everything I think of seems brilliant. My clothing is incredible. My jewelry beautiful. My speech impeccable.
Today is not one of those days. today I feel stupid. Really, incredibly dumb. And I hate that I have nothing in my life. Okay... That's not true. I have my husband who is amazing, but I have nothing that is truly mine. I suck at being a wife. I'm getting better, that's true, but I'm still pretty awful. I'm not in school. I have no job. And no friends. I know this sounds like a total pity party (in a way it is) but I'm just trying to tell you what I feel- with total honesty, just like I promised when I started this thing. I'm just wishing I had something. I really want to get into the wedding biz somehow. I think planning is really the route I want to go, but alas we can't afford to get me through one of the handy certificate programs they recommend and no one will take me on. And why can't we afford it? Because I don't have a job and can't support my family. Lame lame lame. Sorry for whining. Today I feel lame sauce. Just so you know.